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I've never been able to do something without a purpose; there had to be a goal in mind and it had to contribute to something more than just the activity itself. Thus, 5ks, an activity that would contribute to weight loss and provided measurable benchmarks of improvement.
The best I did in any of the races was 41 minutes. Since a 5K is 3.1 miles, I managed to do about a 13 minute mile. Not stellar by any means, but an achievement for me, someone that spent my required time in P.E. classes volunteering to keep score to avoid any exertion.
In June of 2012 I took a trip to Aravaipa Canyon to a B and B with my BFF. We hiked the canyon and I remember feeling strong and confident as a result of those races. I'd been wearing a step tracker for a long time and tracking my food intake. On that trip I was unable to connect to the tracker and broke a streak of consecutive days of tracking. Funny, it was incredibly frustrating and demoralizing. I ran a couple more races the next year and then gave up, adding back some pounds and losing flexibility in my back.
In 2014 I tossed all my bibs, thinking I'd still remember those accomplishments but in reality I think I was getting rid of the evidence of having given up. See, running in races is not like taking a college course or completing a project. It's a continuing test of your abilities and it can be a celebration of just living, without a goal, without judgment, without an end. It might be time to revisit the outdoors on foot.
